Big Apple bites

so this is me, sitting in the sofa and thinking about tomorrow. worried. and really want to go there. hmmmmm
i'm affraid. I don't know why but I just don't want to make my parent sad... I want to make them proud
so, I'll go to jogja and study as hard as I could
as this apple fulls me, I hope I could make my parents satisfied

when I decided to change my memories

ini sebenernya bermula dari tweet. one of my friend say that she remember something every time she come into a place. gue sih langsung nyeletuk aja tanpa basa basi. tapi yang dia lakukan itu malah lebih frontal. I don't know why but I felt curious. and as that happened I know that someone has removed me as a friend.

just think about this thing:

if something doesn't hurt you or disturb you that much, you won't remove or unfollow someone right? and this is happened to me. so my question is what happened? am I too disturbing to be even a friend in a social media?

at the and of the day, I just think about something that I won't recall that time when I met everyone there. just pretend that I don't even know them. I hope I won't disturb anyone again so other people won't remove me like this.

new life (?)

hari ini gue sendirian di rumah. dan tiba2 gue jadi keinget asrama... asrama yang selalu tenang dan damai. hehe I really miss my life in my dorm. awalnya emang gue homesick terus tapi lama2.. great things happened a lot. gue dapet kakak kelas dan temen2 yang bisa ngubah hidup gue seketika.

sedih banget ya ternyata harus pindah dari asrama. rasanya tuh ada yang beda aja. apalagi banyak banget temen2ku yang kuliahnya ga di jogja.... padahal gue berharap banget bisa bareng mereka lagi.. tapi ya, at least they got what they really want.

sekarang gue cuma lagi mikir kalo itu berarti di jogja gue bakal memulai hidup baru (ceileeh).. di tempat kost baru, tempat kuliah yang asing, temen2 baru.. apalagi dari stece yng masuk pgsd sejauh pengamatan gue cuma gue doang!!! bayangin... betapa merananya. tapi ga papa. we'll see, what will happen in my new life :)

I didn't get what I really want

ya.. you know that I really hope that I could study in state university. but that just won't happen. masuk swasta itu...... ya, won't make me jump or something but I just smile when I get in there.... at least I know what to do there. even I don't like children
tapi ya sudahlah.. I just want to make my parents proud. that's hard since I didn't get what I want but its okay. I think God has another good plan for me :)
see ya at Elementary teachers major at Sanata Dharma Jogjakarta

jobless girl

ya, that's me. sekarang gue bener2 jadi orang yang ga punya kerjaan. ternyata sangat kacau. I'm getting fatter! tapi ga papa. this is a REAL holiday!
by the way, kemaren sabtu aku beli kebaya. repoooot banget milihnya. tapi akhirnya hasil pilihan mama yang warna ungu dibeli juga. dan bahagianya juga sekalian beli bawahannya dan sepatunya. yang msih bingung adalah mau diapain ni rambut. yang jelas I will say no to sanggul! males banget dikata orang mau nikahan kali. at least udah dapet jadi legaa banget.
tanggal 23 nanti aku balik jogja. rasanya bingung abis ini mau ke mana lagi... cari kost! that's the most important one!

holiday!!!

ya.. gue udah seminggu lebih melewati yang namanya UN! walaupun sedikit mengecewakan karena soalnya SUSAH banget at least I've done my best! hahahaha
so now, I'm home and getting fatter everyday. gapapalah. diet is not suitable for holiday! so after this post, I think I might post every step that I take after highschool.
*pray for my graduation! and SNMPTN.. amin dah keterima UNY... amiiiiin

before the examination, my room is soooooooo messy but I realized that I have to tidy up and before UN, this mess is turn to happiness!!

I did a wrong thing

so I deleted some of my posts... damn bad news...
and now I just think that a lot of things aren't right in my life. so many things happened without warning and just ruin my life like the flood and the DBD things.. this things made me suffer a lot. but the thing is I've been that down so I wanted to wakt up right now!!! I want to work harder on my study.. I decided to get a higher score. I want to make my family proud. I don't want to make my mom disapointed. she has done a lot of things for me :'( mom, you need to know that I will do anything to make you proud... and now I will fight till the and for my examination. please wish me luck mom :)

hi again!

it's been a long long time after I post my last post. HI AGAIN! hehehhe
I felt really sorry because I really want to write some posts but I can't because I was so very busy last 3 weeks... I really enjoyed my day but some days of the weeks was destroyed by the un-normal exam. in the beginning I was surprised by my score for each subject. 8 for all it just like a big blaster to say : "hey gi, you can do something more than before right?" ...... but it just for the beginning. For other exam, it just same as a s**t. have to find another spirit for my soul.. I fels sooooo tired. I think I AM too tired to do something big like studying........ I know I can but, unfortunately last 3 weeks weren't mine! FIGHTING!

go back dorm

so very happy to be here..... nyaman aman dan sangat menyenangkan. happy

how's my school?

sumpah gue sangat sangat pede pulang duluan. don't you think it's my own desicion but it's my dad's seriously. bokap yang pengen cepet2 jemput gue ga tau kenapa n kita terpaksa pulang naik bis. seru sih pengalaman yang sangat sangat menyenangkan apalagi bisnya bagus. nice nice. sekarnag gue seneng banget udah sampe di rumah. bisa tidur nyenyak di spring bed pklus dinginnya ac. nonton tiap hari dan berita bagusnya bisa tetep online. what a beautiful day. mana makanan enyaaak banget lagi.. applause to my mom! prokprokprok!!! she's the best laaa. gue minta ini jengjeng langsung ada di meja makan. gue minta itu jengjeng langsung ada di kulkas... :*:* banget deh!! but what happen in my school? rapot gue cuk apa kabar? masa gue udah pede aja pulang duluan padahal belom tau nilainya gimana? sumpah ga tau diri banget! but it's me.. always too confident! hahaha let see next month....