beauty and fashion expert on youtube

Hi hi, welcome again to my blog! I've told you the other day that I will share my favorite beauty and fashion youtubers that I like to you guys, so today I'll go ahead and tell you about them. You know there are a lot of beauty and fashion youtubers or even blogger out there, and I feel like lot of them really help me to make my style better from time to time. But there are some of them who become my favorite because of somethings like I like how they edit their videos, or the way that they talk. anyway, let's get started!

1. clothesencounters

So, the first one is clothesencounters. This youtube channel belongs to Jenn Im. Actually I found her channel by accident. I searched how to lose weight and I found her video about how she lost her weight. Her video was inspiring for me because she told me things that make sense for me and she make me want to try her tips.

After that I was surfing more about her and I found that she is doing some make up tutorials and outfits diaries too. I really like the way she talk in her videos, she seems like to talk with me as a friend :) Another reason is I really like her style. She's Korean so her style maybe little more like another korean fashion right now but, that's really cool and she helps me a lot to know more about fashion. I also like how she edited her videos lately. It is super cool :) I never miss her videos and still look forward for a new one! 

Go subscribe her at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCgWfS_47YPVbKx5EK4FLm4A

2. From Head To Toe

The next youtuber that I want to talk about also called Jen. She is the owner of From Head To Toe youtube channel. She is really pretty and She also come from Korean family. What I like about her is the way she talk. I really love how she explain about every product that she loved and she even talk about everything during her tutorials. I also like her videos about sensitive skin (because I have sensitive skin too) and her tips are helping me a lot because her skin is oily and sensitive, just like my skin. Her style is also so cool. Psssst, She also play on a Wong Fu production's short movie called 'Away We Happened'. And I like the movie because she was playing with Victor Kim, who's been my favorite youtubers too cause he is really hot :) hahahaha

check her channel, it is pretty awesome! Go to https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCecyOxHZpL3yfNFaUz2W_Ow

3. RachhLoves
Actually, I just found her channel not long ago. I just subscribe her and I found her very funny. haha I found her from another beauty youtuber, MissJenFABULOUS who I will tell you later. But, even I just found her I think that I really like her videos. She is Canadian and she's very funny. I like how she review about some products that she used, what works or not. The way she talk is really like she talk about some products to her close friend and it just so nice to have a very straight opinion about a product from an ordinary buyer like her. But what's not work for me is she has a pale skin and I don't so sometimes her makeup tutorials just don't really match my skin, but, it still okay for me.

I bet you'll love her too, so check her channerl at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK-4JyAcQYBasFAe367on7w

4. Michelle Phan
Michelle Phan is one of beauty youtubers that really success in her career. She is now has her own beauty line called EM-Cosmetics. She is cool because she really know how to edit her videos which is always awesome for me :) Actually, I like her vlog videos more than her tutorials, because I think her tutorials are really heavy and I don't really like it, but how she talk about trends and another thing are really great. She also has another bussiness that she just started and it is IPSY studios. It is a studio for some new beauty blogger or youtuber. They pack some products into a box (just like another beauty box in the other brand) and send them to the beauty bloggers or youtubers and they let them review what tey get. It is pretty awesome, but the boxes are expensive for a college ordinary girl like me. haha anyways, it is a great channel too!

find her at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuYx81nzzz4OFQrhbKDzTng

5. Asian beauty secrets
Actually I don't really know if this channel is made by her only or a company, but the girl who's always there in the videos called Mia. And actually I don't really like her tutorials too because the make up is too heavy for me. But the thing I really like about the channel is they talk a lot about tips, not just beauty tips but healthy tips too. And they also make a connection to the chinese traditional things like acupressure or face mapping. It is also great to know like pressure points to relieve pain or what. This channel is really full of asian beauty secrets.

discover their secrets at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8f2CDyLibpGYSN3O2LfDwg

6. MissJenFABULOUS
So, actually I found her because of her nail tutorials. All I know her name is Jen. (Why they are a lot of great beauty and fashion youtubers that called Jen?) I really like nail tutorials on youtube because it is easier to learn by videos. I have some youtubers that really helps me with their nail tutorials (I think I will talk about them later). She did a lot of nail tutorials that really easy and cool, and the great thing is in one videos sometimes she is doing 2 or 3 nail art tutorial at once, great huh? Because the other youtubers only upload one tutorial in one video. Lately I found that she also did a products review and tutorials. Again, I don't really like her tutorials because it is too heavy for me, but her reviews are still good and fabulous.

find her fabulousness at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCT27sjmi4NEYRBIRf-fmgow

7. Jaaackjack
Next, I want to talk about the youtube channel that belongs to Jackie. She has lots of tutorials, products reviews, outfits diaries and unboxing videos. Her tutorials are cool, but I found that I really like her unboxing beauty box videos. I don't know why, but I think I found that watching her unboxing the beauty box cool down my curiousity about the beauty box. I actually really want to purchase one, but I don't think that things will really work for me (I mean, I have to pay a lot for a lot of products that I may not like, so..). I also love her hair tutorials. She just so great with hair tutorials especially with extention. I also like her style because she is not really thin like the other youtubers. Her body I think just like mine, so she could become an inspiration for my style.

Curious about her? find her at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClPj321_mfmcX2r1f8q5erA

8. Carrie Rad
I really just found her channel but I think she is really cool. Like other beauty and fashion youtuber of course her channel full of tutorials and outfits diaries. But she also did some tips, some vlogs and also she talk about foods too which is awesome. I think I can found lots of things on her youtube channel.

subscibe her at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCyee8AQyV6g2SGwRjghFb_g

9. Kayley Melissa
I also found her just not long ago. From all beauty and fashion youtubers that I like, she is the only one that just did hair style tutorials. I really like her videos because she is doing it really great. I really want to make great hairstyle like her. She is doing her hairstyle by herself and it literally looks really easy on her hand.

find out about her more at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCctjAAIUSW3DRS-5Phh_hgQ

So that's all the beauty and fashion youtubers that I subscribe. I hope this is helping you if you're looking for a great youtubers to be subsribed or if you want to find great tutorials on youtube. You know they are a lot of tutorials out there and it is really hard to find tutorials that literally describe what you want, right? :)

1st june, one year ago...

Hey June, what's up? It's been a year. yeah I know.. It's been a year since I made the most horrible mistake I've ever did. a year ago, this morning suppose to be one of the most wonderful morning in my life. I've graduated form high school and this day is my graduation day. I did my make up, did my hair, dressed up and came to my school with a proud that I could survive these exhausting years. And then I took pictures, wore my medals, and here comes the worst part: I was arguing with my mom just because even I've graduated from high school I still didn't know where would I go after high school. I didn't know what to do. I was not accepted in public university, and I was still hurt about that. Music education? It's a dream major for me. I really really really-like reaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllyyyyyyyy- want to go there. Or visual design, another dream major for me which I think I'm not that great for this major. The thing is what should I say if they didn't accept me? And because I was still hurt, I didn't apply to another universities. That thing made my mom upset. She wanted me to at least apply to any university. So I cried and just submitted my application. I missed the after-graduation photoshoot, I even didn't get my yearbook because I got to rush to apply my application. And what I did wrong was the way I chose my major. You all know I'm not happy with my major right now (well a little happy, like 8,9% of 100% and I think the number will raise in time), and why I chose this elementary school teacher education is just because of my mom. I know she was so dissapointed with me and I just want to make her proud. She was a elementary school teacher once, so I know she will be happy if I resuming her stride by do what she ever done. And why I didn't choose the other major is because I think I will be bored. Every other major in college make you study the spesific things about the major itself. I can't stand it if I have to study 'just' english or 'just' math or 'just' physics everyday in my college life =__=" Gawd, I will puked every single day. In this major I will study a lot of things. Like now, I got a fine art course, math course, english course, physics course, physicological course and so much more. I never get bored because we learn so much different things in the whole semester, isn't that great? So, yes.. I'm a lot better now. I can (like a little) accept my destiny that I belong here.
Through this problem, I learned that God always has a better plan. He would never made me sick in the middle of my final examination without any purpose. He would never made me accepted in a private university, not in a public university without any reason. He would never made me chose this damn-but-great major without something for me to learn. So, I'm letting go what happened a year ago. with these tears falling, I'm starting a new step on my life without regrets. my life's great.... every little tiny tiny things makes my life greater!

another great thing to learn is: "If you want something, You'll find a way. If not, You'll find an excuse. A great one." 

homesick

entah kenapa gue minggu ini merasa pengen banget pulang.. tugas terlalu banyak dan kuliah terlalu padet bikin pengen keluar dari rutinitas yang seabrek ini. seneng sih banyak kegiatan, tapi capek.
Hari ini libur dan temen-temen gue yang rumahnya deket pada pulang buat ikut pemilu. gue? di kost. gak ngapa-ngapain. rasanya tuh, ya ampun, pengen kayak mereka. coba aja jogja-cikarang cuma 2 jam, gue jalanin deh pulang tiap minggu...
sebenernya waktu paskah nanti adalah moment yang tepat buat pulang. but, the biggest problem come from my parents. mereka tuh mikirnya terlalu ribet. pertama, gue ga boleh pulang karena gue pulang sendirian. what? I am 18 years old, people. I can protect myself. mereka selalu aja masih merlakuin gue kayak anak kecil. kedua, mereka sibuk dan ga bisa jemput di stasiun ataupun terminal. yaelah, gue juga tau jalan pulang ke rumah kali. selama ada kendaraan gue kan bisa cari jalan pulang. I know there are a lot of risks, tapi kan kalo gue ga pernah pulang sendiri gue ga bakal pernah tau gimana caranya pulang sendiri.

yang jelas, I can't go home this easter. rasanya tuh nyesek banget harus tetep tinggal di jogja padahal lo gak ngapa-ngapain di sini. I just want to go home, mom&dad. could you understand? I just miss all the things that happen in our home. T______________________________________________T I must be strong till the end of the semester

college things

kuliah emang bada banget sama sekolah. waktu sekolah kita terus dituntun sama guru dan sekarang waktu kuliah, para dosen ninggalin kita tanpa jejak. jadi gini ceritanya, kemaren jumat itu kan ada makul landasan pendidikan sd, terus emang jadwal kelompokku buat presentasi. We've tried so hard to make our paper.. dan pas dateng, ternyata kita disuruh presentasi sendiri tanpa dosen dan asdos. kita emang tau kalo dosennya ga bisa dateng, katanya bakal diganti sama asdos. tapi nyatanya...

jadilah kita presentasi dengan kelas berisik dan ga efektif. ya jelas, ga ada dosen dan dengan materi yang ribet kayak gitu pastinya anak-anak udah pada males merhatiin.

kuliah emang kayak gitu ternyata. dosen itu bisa seenaknya pergi, seenaknya ngasih ujian susah, seenaknya nyuruh-nyuruh dan yang paling menyebalkan adalah hampir semua dosen itu perfeksionis. liat aja ini dosen seni rupa. menurut dia bagus aja ga cukup tapi harus sempurna.

tugasnya itu sumpah susah banget. rasanya kita kayak disamain sama anak isi. gosh, you know I have no talent for visual arts. so these things just out of my capability. tapi ga papa. mungkin ini salah satu pencerahan seandainya aku beneran jadi dosen. jangan jadi dosen yang kayak gini. keep fighting. hidup mahasiswa!!

LA CF yang "menggijag-gijugkan" hatiku :)

jadi, 3 hari kemaren (ga kemaren juga sih sebenernya) aku ikut LA 1 psm. dari hampir sebulan sebelumnya kita udah dibagi kelompok gitu, terus kita harus ngumpul-ngumpul buat ngomongin callcard, jargon, yel-yel gitu biasa kayak waktu inisiasi. nama kelompoknya itu pake nama-nama gendre musik, kalo kelompokku namanya rohani. hehe

nah, hari jumat kita berangkat bareng-bareng ke penting sari. dan pas sampe itu... tempatnya bagus dan menyenangkan. acara pertama disuruh tutup mata pake slyer terus (I don't know what excactly we're doing) ya kita disuruh muter-muter gitulah pokonya. disuruh nyanyi ini, nyanyi itu, kenalan sama orang-orang dengan mata tertutup, disuruh ngerayu. ya pokoknya gitulah. terus kita disuruh masuk ke ruangan (sebenernya aku ga tau itu di mana sampe dibuka matanya). terus kita, dengan mata tertutup, berdiri ngelingker gitu terus di depannya ada kakak angkatan psm kita, terus mereka nyanyi. kita ikut nyanyi gitu sampe dibuka matanya dan ternyata mereka pegang lilin (menurutku sih so sweet).


hari pertama aku masih belom terlalu keluar gilanya. habis itu kita ada sharing sama pelatih kesayangan kita a.k.a mas bong. dan eng ing eng, kita dikasih tau kalo kita bakal tidur di aula. sumpah itu rasanya shock banget. aku yang capek dan ngantuk banget bahkan waktu sharing udah hampir ketiduran gara-gara mikirin tidur di kasur empuk. tapi ya sudah, kita jalani dengan penuh ketabahan. kita tidur di tiker gitu dan yang lebih ngagetin itu kita dibangunin (aku juga ga tau jam berapa) terus disuruh jalan nyusurin tali. dipinggir track kita ada kakak-kakaknya yang nakut-nakutin gitu. tapi ya aku masih ngantuk jadi ga ngerti dan ga takut gitu. hahaha.. terus aku masuk ke ruangan yang ada pelatihku, terus aku ya seperti biasa diajak sharing gitu tentang psm. pokoknya ya nguatin aku untuk tetep rajin di psm. udah gitu aku disuruh tidur lagi, gantian sama temen-temen yang lain.


besoknya kita bangun terus ganti baju dress code. pake baju item-item kita jalan ke apa ya namanya? kali atau sungai gitulah. terus di pinggir kali atau sungai itu kita mulai latihan alamnya. latihannya lebih ke fisik sih. mulai dari tahan napas, terus tiduran, terus angkat kaki, angkat badan, posisi push up. gitulah pokoknya. habis itu kita latihan ekspresi. ini seru menurutku. hahaha. habis itu kita balik lagi ke wisma, tapi ga boleh mandi (mencurigakan kan?). ternyata habis latihan alam kita ada semacam outbond gitu. seru sih, mainan tepung sama air. sorenya kita ada talentshow berdasarkan kelompok ekspresi yang tadi dibagi. dan mulailah kegilaanku muncul di sini. apalagi waktu panitia tampil dan ngajak oplosan. aku yang ga pernah goyang oplosan ikut-ikutan dan akhirnya ketagihan. seruuuu pake banget! hahahaahaha ngakak banget. habis itu kita disuruh duduk ngelingker lagi terus ada kakak angkatan yang duduk di depan kita lagi terus kita nyanyi lagi. ternyata kakak yang duduk di depan kita itu kakak lilin kita. kakak lilinku namanya kak paul. kita sharing gitu tentang psm.
besoknya waktu bangun badan udah sakit. dan kita main dandan-dandanan gitu. pake bedak, pake lipstick. yang paling lucu itu ya cowok-cowok. hahahaahah.. habis itu kita kembali ditutup matanya dan dikelilingin entah ke mana. aku disuruh main ular naga, main domikado, nyanyi ini itu.. yang paling gila adalah kita dikasih sesuatu (cairan gitu) dan itu bau banget. semacam tepung campur telur campur sesuatu yang busuk. yeyek lah pokoke. tapi akhirnya ada kayak upacara penyambutan gitu. kita yang kotor disiram pake air gitu. terus kita main kejar-kejaran sama panitia. hahaha..

yang jelas LA1 ini bener-bener ngena di hati. gijag-gijug banget hatinya. hahaha
aku jadi lebih kenal anak-anak CF, ga cuma angkatanku tapi juga kakak-kakak angkatan. terus aku juga bisa lebih pd (gila mungkin) dan belajar buat berteman sama siapa aja..
dan yang penting, kelompokku menang callcard terbaik. ga sia-sia perjuangan kita di-php dampok serta berulangkali bertemu plus ke paingan sampe malem demi ngerjain callcard. yeaaay. I'm proud to be the part of rohani!!!

LA1 itu tanggal 26 april katanya. aku jadi kangen dan pengen cepet-cepet LA lagi... semangat! hehehehe LA1 CF 2013 jug gijag gijug gijag gijug gejeg gejeg gejeg aauuww! :)

movie review febuary

the first movie that I've watched last month was Vampire Academy. waktu awal nonton, gue pikir filmnya bakal seru dan bagus efeknya. I must say this movie is nice, but the problem is the storyline move too fast. I can't enjoy the movie because I was too confused about the scene. banyak adegan-adegan seru yang terlalu cepet selesainya. I was too confused to understand the flow of the story. Dari awal cerita plotnya emang udah cepet banget. waktu gue nonton, gue baru ngerti kalo ternyata mereka kabur dari Vampire academy dan dijemput balik ke sana. terus juga gurunya yang udah keluar itu bener-bener gak jelas ceritanya. mungkin harusnya sebelum film ini ada film yang nyeritain cerita sebelum mereka kabur biar ceritanya lebih jelas. dan akhir cerita juga masih gantung.. jadi mungkin aja mereka bakal bikin Vampire Academy 2.
Walau filmnya membingungkan, tapi selama banyak pemeran gantengnya, film ini tetep seru untuk ditonton. hahahaha!

nah, kalo film ini film yang recomended banget. this movie was great, as great as I expected before!  ceritanya dari awal memang agak membingungkan, tapi kan ini cerita detektif jadi ya udah memang seharusnya kita ikut mikir dan ngira-ngira sebenernya siapa yang jadi tersangka. dari awal sampe hampir akhir, kita bakal fokus sama ceritanya. yang jelas semua orang bisa aja jadi suspect, jadi beneran ga ketebak jalan ceritanya. bahkan 10 menit terakhir itu baru bener-bener kebuka sebenernya kayak apa jalan ceritanya. dan yang paling penting, film ini ngajarin gimana cara penyelamatan diri yg baik kalo naik pesawat. pertama, kalo ada bom di pesawat, kita harus bilang ke pilotnya untuk terbang sekitar ketinggian 8000 kaki. katanya sih ketinggian ini bisa meredam ledakan gitu. terus semua tas ditumpuk ke atas bom itu supaya ledakannya ga terlalu keras. terus kalo masker oksigen udah turun, pakein anak kecil sama orang lansia dulu baru pakein diri sendiri. terus kita juga ga boleh panik, tetep harus berpikir jernih kalo ada teroris di pesawat.
film ini hampir semua scenenya bagus. tapi scene yang paling ganggu adalah scene terakhir. It was too much I think! pesawatnya jatuh dengan parahnya, sampe rodanya lepas, terus kursinya ada yang kelempar keluar. penggambarannya itu terlalu gak masuk akal. tapi buat jalan cerita yang gak bisa ditebak dan menuntut kita buat fokus dan mikir sepanjang film gue kasih bintang 8,5!!

so which movie do you prefer? I think I will post some review of the new movie that I'll watch later... see ya

do you want to build a snowman?

this phrase is a piece of Frozen's song lyrics. I would like to say that I almost cry because of this song. This song is about Anna who really want to go out with her sister, Elsa. Elsa locked herself in her room because she doesn't want to hurt Anna. Elsa has a power who can freeze anything she touch. she made her sister hurt once, so she doesn't want to hurt her anymore.
the phrase "Do you want to build a snowman" is represented a loneliness. Anna really want to play with Elsa, build a snowman and talk together like they used to be.

In my life, this phrase made me cry because I think I felt the same loneliness. I really miss my friends. I want to go out with them. but at the moment they already have their own thing to do. I miss all the time that we've spent together. this new life is sucks! I really want to rewind the time and find myself back with all my besties. guys, "do you want to build a snowman?"

the day has arrive!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............. a very good news just arrived this morning. I'll tell you what is it later but the thing is I am so excited right now... I am so happy about the trip and the good news thing. I hope this will be a nice trip and I can survive until the end of the trip. we're going to Drini Beach in wonosari. some of my friends said Drini Beach is a beautiful whitesand beach. can't wait to see the sand...
well, my skin will get brown but I don't care... so excited so I can't tall you about the news.
see ya later!!! next posting will be on Sunday!

living in a different world

aku baru aja pulang jalan bareng temen2 SMA. ya, tadi aku ikut EKM STECE. terus kita jalan ke mondo dan makan di sana. cerita2 sampe jam 10 (dari jam 8)... awalnya cerita kuliah biasa. dan lama2 merambat ke masalah temen2. bukan gimana ya, tapi di kuliah itu temennya bener2 beda sama sekolah dulu. aku ga bisa ketemu temen yang gilanya ya segila aku dulu. aku ga bisa nemu temen yang accept my crazy part of brain... dan ternyata temen-temenku juga merasakan hal yang sama. apalagi temen2 kita sekarang cenderung ga punya inisiatif.. bukan kita sok ngatur, tapi begitu ketemu sama hal kecil yang kita udah terbiasa untuk ngerjain bareng-bareng dan ga ada yang mau ngurusin ya kita terpanggil untuk ngurusin. kita dari dulu diajarin untuk ngurusin semua sendiri (like a single parent *kata odil* haha). kita kan ga mungkin ngelakuin segala sesuatu dituntun terus. banyak cerita yang ngegambarin kalo kita sekarang udah hidup dunia yang beda dari dulu. we used to live in a place called women solidarity world and now we're in a middle of selfish world...
 I really miss my old friends. these new things drive me crazy!

the day we realize that life is not that important to us

yap... the life isn't that important. I mean, there's a thing that more important than life, spirit. I realize that I'm alive but I don't have any spirit to live my life... I feel empty and sad all the time. I just think that it's more than enough. even if I can't accept somethings in my life doesn't mean this is the end of my life or something right? I'm immature and I know that won't help. but sometimes, when you look at the toodler, which still learn to walk, you see that even if they fall over and over again they have to stand back and start to walk again or they would never walk for entire of their life again... so, I will stand back and walk my life again. and this time I will walk with full spirit

(another) what if

aransemen
seandainya video ini keupload dan berhasil di link ke web snmptn 6 bulan lalu.... I won't be here and willing to be a primary teacher..... if only.....

I messed up

I got an audition for campus choir yesterday. I was too excited that I can't chose what song to sing. I even changed the song a minute before they called my name. and the worst thing is I messed up my interview... T___T they asked me "how sure you could make it and join this choir" I was shaking and thought every single number that I could say but I said "60%" .... and I felt sad about it. I should said more! hmmmm...
I hope I could get in there. I just really really want to join them. I hope I could......... now the last thing that I can do is waiting and pray

jadi guru (?)

dan ini serius, dipikiranku jadi guru itu hanya 0.5% bisa jadi nyata. gue, bentukan kayak gini mau jadi guru? ya.. I don't think I can handle kids. dan di inisiasi fakultasku itu aku merasa kalo kita disiapin banget jadi guru. the real thing is who knows the future? maybe some of us later won't be a teacher. maybe something else. ya, mungkin semua pada nanya "kalo lo ga mau jadi guru kenapa ambil FKIP gi?"
ya, you can read my lastest post. I just don't really want this. can I get what I really want?

holiday!!!

ya.. gue udah seminggu lebih melewati yang namanya UN! walaupun sedikit mengecewakan karena soalnya SUSAH banget at least I've done my best! hahahaha
so now, I'm home and getting fatter everyday. gapapalah. diet is not suitable for holiday! so after this post, I think I might post every step that I take after highschool.
*pray for my graduation! and SNMPTN.. amin dah keterima UNY... amiiiiin

nbl effect

that's all because this free ticket.. you know that I've never ever liked to watch basketball match. and *demiapa* I accidentally love to watch NBL ... this event make me fall over heels for a lot of basketball player.. OMG! they so cool. I even say to my brother to take basketball as his favorite sport but, I failed :P ...

nice and my room mate take her pict with one of them! kelly purwanto (ever heard about him?) his so cool! OMG again!

I might have a mind to go to Indonesian Idol audition next session. I bet I would never ever regret that like now..

"Dreams gonna work" I believe that!

believe me? it's me! hahahah

I'm back!!

I'm back guys... hahaha long time no see right! ya ya ya it's a worst holiday with a chemical test~ gosh.. I hate this time! udah 1 hari belajar tapi ga ada yang masuk. ada sih tapi ya.... just a little bit. unyu banget ga? harus ngafal deret volta dkk. is it important? what is its influence for my job? gosh..... ya ya ya.. belajar emang penuh dengan realita kalo itu ga berhubungan sama apa yang bakal kita kerjain waktu udah lulus nanti. tau2 udah belajar susah2 gini cuma jadi ibu rumah tangga. atau cuma jadi guru musik. atau lebih parahnya jadi wirausaha. we don't know anything about our future right? so all we can do now just pray and do the best! ayo semangat belajar!!

a new hope has arrived!

yes! is all about my new bike! thanks God bonyok udah setuju sesetuju setujunya beli sepeda. ini baru namanya new hope! hahaha.. udah beberapa kali ke jalan raya sih okeh2 aja, tapi masih takut kalo turunan. dan tiap minggu sekarang ke ugm buat latian... what a good weekend!

I believe everything is gonna be alright! and another good thing is : I've decided to move on! Udah lupa sama semuanya dan mudah mudahan aja bisa bener-bener lupa. There's a lot around here gi! haha... MOVE ON!

is this called envy???

jadi gini ya rasanya terpuruk bgt? bisa bayangin gue ngerasa bego banget n minta nambah les sementara bokap dgn seenaknya ngomong gini: "papa pikir kamu udah banyak les tapi kenapa prestasinya gak naik2?" gue tau gue emang udah mentok! sekarang mau apa lagi coba? udah cukup deh gue kena marah terus gara2 nilai. ya gue mau naikin nilai dgn les pelajaran n malah ga boleh.. ya udah gue makin nyente minta les musik.. ya tambah ga blh laa..

apalagi nyokab itu lagi proses kelaur dari kerjaannya.. ya kinda economic crisis here.. tapi kan tetep aja gue selama ini ngerasa apa yang gue keluarin ga parah2 banget kok.. beli baju? ya pernah sih, tapi ga tiap bulan sih! beli sepatu? never! terus maunya gue apa? naik kaki ke sekolah tiap hari? ga pernah makan di luar? sabtu sepi n galau sendirian? gue jadi males pulang nih!! gue ngerti sih bokap bilang kita harus hemat buat nabung gue masuk kuliah.. tapi ya gak gini sih.. ini LEBAY!

tapi nyokab nenangin dengan bilang kalo dia mau ngelesin n wirausaha gitu.. ya bagus deh.. block dad's opinion mom!! he won't ever be able to understand me!! and about my study? it's decided.. UNJ musik!! yeah.. hope this will be success!!

#when I was younger I never get E even D on the exam and now F is usual

dapet 20 gi? what's wrong with ya?

gue ngerasa bego banget! rasanya tuh bener2 mau gantung diri banget! ini udah keterlaluan banget! padahal jelas2 gue udah belajar sampe jam 12 malem!!! demi apa.. gue hafal semua rumus. tapi bener2 bingung mau pake yang mana.. gue ga yakin bisa tuntas nih.. optimis sih, tapi..........

tetap semangat! this is not the end of the world gi.. there is a tomorrow. don't miss it.. you can do it!

I'm off.. this math-etic need more concentration than I thought before. nice day everyone. good luck for the exam!