life goals (?)

so, hi hi people :) hehe it's H-11 going back to Jogja and I have a lot to tell you. I don't know where to start (soalnya 11 hari lagi gue ga bakal punya internet cepet yang dapat mengakomodasi terjaminnya isi blog gue ini haha). so, let me start with my goals this year. we haven't meet since forever, which is more than a year, and I haven't told you about my life goals this year. okaay, so last christmas I couldn't go home because I have a lot to do in Jogja. My first goal this year is get a lot of activities that I could do. I want to have a very tight days in my week so I don't have to think about missing home or other useless things. yeah, it's work! last 6 months I've been busy all the time and I can't even have a break just to buy some groceries. pretty busy, huh? I took a lot of responsibilities that made me too busy so I couldn't go out with some of my friends too. that affect my sleeping pattern too. I have little time to sleep and sometimes I have hard time to concentrate in class. I know that's hard for me, but I love being busy, so, I'm happy :) am I? :')

The second goal is I wanna be my truly self. I mean, not that all this time I lied about who I am. but I just feel that I've been hiding in my comfort zone. I think and do things that I think will make me stay in my comfort zone. I just do not want to do that anymore. I'm 20 right now, and I have to act like I'm 20. so I take my responsibilities to show what person I've hide before. you know, I like to lead, I mean I can take a responsibility as a leader. so I took that responsibility. I become a leader of an event. not a big event, but I know this is just like an opening to show what I've got.

Third is I want to be prettier. LOL, but this real. I know that I already told anyone that everyone is beautiful but I want to have my own style to get into it. so, I'm trying to get my eyes on some beauty bloggers and youtubers. I think I'm going to tell you about these girls later :)

And this is my last goal : accept my past. I want to look forward and just look back my past for my good. I want to take my past as a lesson not as a regret. I want to believe that everything in my past have their part to make me as me today. so, here I am, enjoying myself as a teacher wannabe. yess, I'm ready to be a teacher. but not a usual teacher, a rocking teacher that have a busy schedule, accept herself, and mature enough to accept everything happened in her past. Also, I want to be a stylish teacher :) hahaha. I'm getting ready for the next semester! 

terjebak di rumah

lucu banget sih ceritanya ini gue mau curhat. Kemaren gue udah berusaha sekuat tenaga (lebay) buat nyari tiket pulang. Maunya gue kan pulang ke Jogja tanggal 9 Juli, tapi masalahnya tiket kereta udah abis sampe habis lebaran. GILAAAK. Awalnya gue beneran bingung karena gue ada jadwal latihan PSM dan ngurusin beberapa usda buat acara kampus. Tapi setelah konsultasi dengan berbagai pihak (ceilaah) kayaknya gue harus stay di rumah sampe habis lebaran itu.
Sebenernya gue bingung banget sih kenapa lebaran itu selalu identik dengan mudik. Gue kan juga ga ngerayain lebaran ya, jadi gue ga terlalu ngerti tradisi-tradisi begituan. Ya yang gue bingung sebenernya gimana mereka bisa pulang kampung bareng-bareng habis itu balik lagi ke kota bareng-bareng juga. Mungkin malah bisa satu kereta sama yang kemaren. Kan lucu aja, hahahaha
Intinya adalah gue bisa lebih lama di rumah yang kalo dipandang dari sisi positif adalah rejeki anak sholeh yang ga boleh ditolak. haha
Ini juga mungkin sebagai bentuk teguran dari Tuhan supaya gue istirahat sebentar. Semester depan itu gue sibuknya bukan main.. Gue pulang Jogja nanti aja gue harus udah ngejar latihan buat konser PSM. Awal Agustus udah mulai rapat Story Telling. September gue harus ngurusin PAB PSM, Oktober awal Story Telling and Writing Competition, Oktober akhir ngurusin seminar, November awal konser. Yes, I'm supeeeeerrr busyyyy. Jadi sekarang saatnya gue liburan dulu. semangaaaaat! hehehehe

I'm back

oh gosh, after all this time I left my blog I'm back! hahaha.. I think my blog already had some nest and spiderweb on it. blaaah
after a year, I have a lot to tell you guys. I don't know where to start.
So here I am, standing as a future's teacher. Yup, this time is real. I finally realize that being a teacher is a great deal and I will dedicate myself to being one. haha
And I am 20 years old right now, which make me more confident and mature (I think) haha. Nothing I can't do to make time stop so I have to accept that I am OLD, haha not that old, but yeah..
So this is the intro, I'll meet you guys like tomorrow! haha.. too much to say.
XOXO

homesick

entah kenapa gue minggu ini merasa pengen banget pulang.. tugas terlalu banyak dan kuliah terlalu padet bikin pengen keluar dari rutinitas yang seabrek ini. seneng sih banyak kegiatan, tapi capek.
Hari ini libur dan temen-temen gue yang rumahnya deket pada pulang buat ikut pemilu. gue? di kost. gak ngapa-ngapain. rasanya tuh, ya ampun, pengen kayak mereka. coba aja jogja-cikarang cuma 2 jam, gue jalanin deh pulang tiap minggu...
sebenernya waktu paskah nanti adalah moment yang tepat buat pulang. but, the biggest problem come from my parents. mereka tuh mikirnya terlalu ribet. pertama, gue ga boleh pulang karena gue pulang sendirian. what? I am 18 years old, people. I can protect myself. mereka selalu aja masih merlakuin gue kayak anak kecil. kedua, mereka sibuk dan ga bisa jemput di stasiun ataupun terminal. yaelah, gue juga tau jalan pulang ke rumah kali. selama ada kendaraan gue kan bisa cari jalan pulang. I know there are a lot of risks, tapi kan kalo gue ga pernah pulang sendiri gue ga bakal pernah tau gimana caranya pulang sendiri.

yang jelas, I can't go home this easter. rasanya tuh nyesek banget harus tetep tinggal di jogja padahal lo gak ngapa-ngapain di sini. I just want to go home, mom&dad. could you understand? I just miss all the things that happen in our home. T______________________________________________T I must be strong till the end of the semester

new years eve

this is the last day of 2013. this year I've suffered from a lot of problems. banyak penyesalan yang timbul cuma gara2 salah mengambil keputusan tahun ini. kenapa gue harus masuk pgsd? kenapa gue harus sakit waktu UN? I know we can't rewind the time, so I don't have to regret it anymore.
tahun depan gue akan coba buat gak nyesel lagi masuk jurusan yang bikin gue gila ini. tahun 2014 bakal jadi tahun kebangkitan gue! gue akan berusaha sebaik mungkin biar gue cepet lulus.
the thing is gue sangat kecewa tahun ini banyak resolusi yang gak tercapai. jadi tahun depan gue ga mau punya resolusi. jadi mulai besok gue akan jalanin hidup tanpa beban. I have targets but no resolution. gak ada yang mesti gue capai tahun ini. so now, I welcoming a very wonderful year 2014!
goodbye 2013! too much memories I've learned from you... 2014, please be good! I want to learn more from you... let's meet tomorrow!

Happy new year everyone!

holiday!!!

ya.. gue udah seminggu lebih melewati yang namanya UN! walaupun sedikit mengecewakan karena soalnya SUSAH banget at least I've done my best! hahahaha
so now, I'm home and getting fatter everyday. gapapalah. diet is not suitable for holiday! so after this post, I think I might post every step that I take after highschool.
*pray for my graduation! and SNMPTN.. amin dah keterima UNY... amiiiiin

I'm back!!

I'm back guys... hahaha long time no see right! ya ya ya it's a worst holiday with a chemical test~ gosh.. I hate this time! udah 1 hari belajar tapi ga ada yang masuk. ada sih tapi ya.... just a little bit. unyu banget ga? harus ngafal deret volta dkk. is it important? what is its influence for my job? gosh..... ya ya ya.. belajar emang penuh dengan realita kalo itu ga berhubungan sama apa yang bakal kita kerjain waktu udah lulus nanti. tau2 udah belajar susah2 gini cuma jadi ibu rumah tangga. atau cuma jadi guru musik. atau lebih parahnya jadi wirausaha. we don't know anything about our future right? so all we can do now just pray and do the best! ayo semangat belajar!!

this is the end

liburrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!! what a beautiful day! upps! masalahnya nilai gue itu sekarang super duper jelek!! mampus gue kalo ketauan bokap.. gue yang biasanya bawa nilai dengan bangga kali ini bakal nangis mati2an dapan bokap.. bisa gaswa gue!! apa kata bonyok.. bisa dipulangin dari sini gue *justru bagus sih sebenernya*

tapi kan gue di sini harusnya ngbanggain? gimana sih gi??? sebenernya ya bener kata bokap: jurusan musik sama desain itu gak terlalu penting nilai fisika atau kimia ya..

tapi kan tetep aja.. gengsi? lumayan.. tapi yang lebih penting itu adalah malu.. malu banget lah kalo sampe gue dapet rank terbawah di kelas.. what the hell will i say?? shit!

keep fightingia!! holiday!!

still

xmas

our christmas

10.09.10

LEBARAN.. hahaahah
ini berarti pulang.. Pertama kalinya naik pesawat sendiirian..
tapi seru kok!! bareng temen2.. pulang nanti malah bener2 sendirian..
akhirnya hari yang ditunggu dateng dan itu yang mencemaskan.. bentar lagi malah pulang.. dan harus mengerjakan pr yang banyak itu.. hehehe

hari pertama masuk udah ulangan.. MATH PULA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gag papa deh.. berjuang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kangen sama semuanya.. maaf ya kemaren gag ikut karena ujan.. besok harus jadi.. ok???????
SEMANGAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CU TOMORROW!

16.08.10

saya sangat2 bosan.. besok upacara karena 17 agustus gitu!!
sekarang jadi boleh sampe malem!~

hiks2..
tgl 6 SEPTEMBER PULANG!!
menunggu beberapa minggu! hari ini kuis BANYAK BANGET@!! bt jadinya!!
mu tlpnan gitu.. kangan sama sahabat2ku di jauh sana!!

11.08.10

kangen rumah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kabar baiknya tgl 6 sept akhirnya pulang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love holiday!
kemaren tidur sampe kepala pusing-kabanyakan tidur kayaknya!!
THX GOD aku bisa pulang tgl 6..
ngiri.. tau gag kemaren itu asrama sepi banget!!!!!!!!!!!!! tapi sekarang dah mulai rame..
tinggal nunggu oleh2 aja deh! udah mulai banyak pr nih! jadi pusing!
sekarang tinggal menyelesaikan pencarain TIK itu terus selesai deh! kangen temen2.. mana Flash Disk kebawa bokap balik ke cikarang lagi! sungguh malangnya! jadi gag bisa ngapa2in deh!! nunggu cepet2 libur lebaran!!!!!!!!!! ayolah!