new years eve

this is the last day of 2013. this year I've suffered from a lot of problems. banyak penyesalan yang timbul cuma gara2 salah mengambil keputusan tahun ini. kenapa gue harus masuk pgsd? kenapa gue harus sakit waktu UN? I know we can't rewind the time, so I don't have to regret it anymore.
tahun depan gue akan coba buat gak nyesel lagi masuk jurusan yang bikin gue gila ini. tahun 2014 bakal jadi tahun kebangkitan gue! gue akan berusaha sebaik mungkin biar gue cepet lulus.
the thing is gue sangat kecewa tahun ini banyak resolusi yang gak tercapai. jadi tahun depan gue ga mau punya resolusi. jadi mulai besok gue akan jalanin hidup tanpa beban. I have targets but no resolution. gak ada yang mesti gue capai tahun ini. so now, I welcoming a very wonderful year 2014!
goodbye 2013! too much memories I've learned from you... 2014, please be good! I want to learn more from you... let's meet tomorrow!

Happy new year everyone!

do you want to build a snowman?

this phrase is a piece of Frozen's song lyrics. I would like to say that I almost cry because of this song. This song is about Anna who really want to go out with her sister, Elsa. Elsa locked herself in her room because she doesn't want to hurt Anna. Elsa has a power who can freeze anything she touch. she made her sister hurt once, so she doesn't want to hurt her anymore.
the phrase "Do you want to build a snowman" is represented a loneliness. Anna really want to play with Elsa, build a snowman and talk together like they used to be.

In my life, this phrase made me cry because I think I felt the same loneliness. I really miss my friends. I want to go out with them. but at the moment they already have their own thing to do. I miss all the time that we've spent together. this new life is sucks! I really want to rewind the time and find myself back with all my besties. guys, "do you want to build a snowman?"

don't stay in my way

yeah, I dont want something or somebody stand in the way I walked in. I've fell into this wrong way and I just want to walk through it as fast as I can. I want to be graduated as soon as possible! I don't want anything disturb me. anything, any kind of thing.. I just want to say that I'm, trying to be nice for everyone. I just don't want they think I am arrogant or something. that's all. I just want to be remembered as a good person. and I don't even want someone fall for it. I mean, I just want to make friends. (wow, I mean not really friends but something that cool enough just to know each other's name)
so, I'm telling you to get lost! just... go, I don't want to hurt anyone. I just want the fastest way to get over this thing and then chase my own dream.. I just want to let it go. I can't hold it back. it's been a long time since I could talk the way I wanted to. I've been always be a good girl, I mean for anyone. and now, I won't let anything stand in my way. fight for your own dream gi!!!

frozen !

maybe after this post you will think I'm childish, but this is me.. I like being childish. haha.
you know I love cartoons and yesterday I watched Disney's newest animation movie. It is FROZEN! I'm so excited because I know the story will be different from another Disney's stories...
And the best thing about this movie is the soundtrack. a lot of glee cast sang for this movie and Kristen Bell too!

you know, animated movies not always made for children. nah, I think this movie not only made for children but for adult too. this movie is about love stuff and sisterhood. with a perfect soundtrack this movie almost made me cry a couple of time.

reunion

jadi ceritanya hari sabtu kemaren woro ke jogja. jadilah kita jalan bareng ya udah kayak reunian gitu jatohnya. hahaha... gimana enggak? ada aku, woro, osi, elae, riri sama ike. ya cuma ber-6 sih tapi rasanya udah rame. hehe
kita makan bakso dan soto di sekolah, ketemu guru-guru, ngobrol-ngobrol tentang kuliah. iya, kita semua merasakan hal yang sama. kuliah itu ga seenak sma. temennya yang beda. we do have friends, but we couldn't be as crazy as when we're with friends from high school. tapi ya cepat atau lambat kan kita harus bisa adaptasi..
yang paling asik adalah akhirnya aku bisa makan bakso sekolah lagi. harganya sih udah naik jadi 6000, tapi rasanya masih sama enaknya. rasanya bisa duduk di aula lagi juga sesuatu banget. haha. selama ngobrol guru-guru tuh pada seliwar seliwir depan kita terus ya salaman dan ngobrol-ngobrol gitu. lucu aja sebenernya ngobrol sama mereka sekarang ketika kita udah ga jadi muridnya lagi. it's just like we're talking to our old friends... hahahah
yang jelas semuanya menyenangkan banget. rasanya pengen ngulang masa-masa itu. harusnya dulu aku ga ngeluh separah itu, buktinya sekarang bisa kangen. rasanya kayak udah lama banget, padahal juga belom sampe satu semester ninggalin sekolah. tapi berasa banget bedanya. hmmmmm... singkat cerita dari sekolah kita pergi ke moviebox. kita nonton ber-7, ketambahan runi gitu. hehe. pulang nonton kan udah sore, aku, riri, woro sama ike balik ke rumah ike dulu.

jam 6 kita langsung cus ke mcd ketemu sese sama maye... pas ketemu tuh rasanya ya ampun udah lama banget ga liat muka mereka.. hahhaa.. kita ngobrol tuh bener-bener sampe ga punya malu. kita di mcd dari jam 6 sampe jam 9 lebih. ketawa-ketawa dengan seenaknya padahal itu malem minggu dan rame banget. dan kita mengganggap seperti rumah sendiri dengan foto-foto gitu. hahahahaha. ga tau malu inilah yang aku kangenin dari diriku. rasanya ke-enggak-tau-malu-an di diriku berkurang setelah lulus. hahahaha... awesome day girls!!

a glass of lemonade

melati wrote this. thx for the spirit mel & lis :)

satu setengah bulan jadi mahasiswa FKIP itu rasanya lucu banget. like a glass of lemonade. it's sour but sweet. masih tersisa sedikit sedih karena ga jadi masuk jurusan musik atau desain tapi sekarang aku udah bisa nerima dan jadi seneng ngajar dan ngeliat anak kecil. mungkin karena di pingit ketemu banyak anak yang buat aku bersyukur dan banyak belajar tentang hidup. I love being here..

mungkin untuk sekarang ini aku udah masih merasa asem di pgsd. tapi sedikit demi sedikit rasa manisnya mulai terasa dan buat aku nyaman. temen-temen yang selalu ngasih semangat lebih dan juga selalu dengerin keluhanku yang kadang terlalu sinis. :) tapi sekarang aku udah lebih semangat kuliah. mungkin karena udah banyak kegiatan.. semoga aja ini bisa bertahan terus sampe aku lulus nanti

at least, aku udah bisa menerima semua yang udah terjadi dan berusaha ga ngeliat-liat itu lagi dan berenti nyesel jadi calon guru.. teacher is pretty cool, right?

overwhelmed

ya, seperti biasa selasa kemaren aku ngajar di pingit. pergi dengan hati bahagia karena bakal ketemu anak-anak yang lucu-lucu. tapi..... semua berakhir bencana waktu ternyata orang yang berangkat cuma 4 orang. biasanya yang ngajar banyak, seitar 8-14 orang. tapi kemaren...... such a disaster. we were overwhelmed to handle too many kids who comes to the class. too crowded to teach them something.
tapi yang lucu adalah kita dapet banyak pelajaran. aku yang tadinya bingung ngadepin anak kecil. sekarang jadi sedikit demi sedikit bisa pd ngomong sama anak kecil. at least I got something to learn yesterday......

so this is the good news

"Selamat, mulai sekarang kamu sudah bergabung menjadi keluarga PSM Cantus Firmus"

itu yang pertama kali aku baca waktu bangun tepat waktu mau siap-siap berangkat insipro. kaget udah pasti, tapi yang paling penting adalah rasa seneng yang gak terkira. dari sekian banyak orang yang daftar aku kepilih untuk jadi anggota itu rasanya lebih dari seneng bahkan. dan rasanya mau teriak sekeras-kerasnya. salah satu mimpiku udah tercapai, sekarang tinggal gimana menjaga komitmen aja...

kemaren senin anggota keluarga baru Cantus Firmus kumpul. kita saling kenalan dan sharing. 51 anggota baru dan cuma sedikit yang aku kenal. ini berarti peluang buat memperluas pergaulan dan mengasah bakat nih. ketemu sama orang baru, kakak-kakak angkatan, dan berorganisasi untuk pertamakali di kuliah (setelah lama gak ikut organisasi selama SMA).

so, now you have to manage your time well, gi. you have a lot of tasks, homeworks and now you have to practice twice a week.

dan yang paling penting sekarang aku ada motivasi terbaik untuk kuliah : PSM !!! yeeaaay

kalo gini aku jadi semangat kuliah! hehehe

I'm back!

hello world!! it's been a long time.. haha ;)
jadi minggu kemaren aku baru aja pulang insipro di pantai drini. ya capek tapi cukup menyenangkan. apalagi malemnya baru dapet berita bahagia jadi harus dimanfaatkan dengan baik :) cerita tentang berita bahagianya dipending dulu ya. sekarang insipro dulu. insipronya 3 hari dari tanggal 19-21 Agustus.
hari kamis itu kita disuruh kumpul sekitar jam 5. otomatis aku jam 5 kurang 10 udah jalan dari kost. sumpah serem banget. mungkin itu cuma parno aja sih jalannya kan sepi. tapi ya setidaknya aku berhasil ngelewatin jalanan itu sepagi itu. hehe.. tapi masalahnya adalah ternyata begitu nyampe itu ga langsung berangkat. berangkatnya bener-bener telat banget! masa jam 7 baru berangkat? itu semua gara2 bis dan truk angkatan daratnya telat dateng.. hmmmm
jalan ke pantainya itu jauuuuuuh banget. berkelak-kelok gitu. aku aja udah ketiduran terus kebangun terus ketiduran lagi masih belom nyampe-nyampe. haha tapi pas nyampe, kita diturunin di jalan gitu dan kita tracking ke pantainya. capek sih tapi pemandangannya itu worthed banget! dari jalanan tracking kita bisa liat ombak dan laut lepas gitu. keren lah pokoknya. abis itu kita ndiriin tenda dan beres-beres. hari pertama itu cukup menohok buat aku. pertama, jinglenya itu ada kata-kata yang menyindir. "bergabung menjadi keluarga pgsd sanata dharma" itu beneran bikin aku gak nyaman. kedua, ada video tentang pgsd dan salah satu karakternya itu agak nyindir aku. dia ngomong pake gue lo, pake sepatu yang bunyinya klik klak (anyway aku pake sepatu itu karna ga ada sepatu lain), dia masuk pgsd terpaksa dan yang paling penting adalah dia teriak dengan keras waktu dia tau kalo semester 2 ada pramuka, yang aku juga lakuin waktu aku tau. tapi at the end of the day, semua berjalan lancar-lancar aja...
hari kedua masih sama.. a lot of tracking..... dan akhirnya aku lumayan bisa nerima keberadaan aku di sini sebagai anak pgsd... semoga ini berlangsung lama ya. sampe aku lulus dan nantinya jadi guru :'')

suku asmat di pantai drini 21 Agustus 2013 - insipro pgsd 2013

the day has arrive!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............. a very good news just arrived this morning. I'll tell you what is it later but the thing is I am so excited right now... I am so happy about the trip and the good news thing. I hope this will be a nice trip and I can survive until the end of the trip. we're going to Drini Beach in wonosari. some of my friends said Drini Beach is a beautiful whitesand beach. can't wait to see the sand...
well, my skin will get brown but I don't care... so excited so I can't tall you about the news.
see ya later!!! next posting will be on Sunday!

haaachiiiiii

I'm sneezing this morning.. dingin banget hari ini. bangun dengan keadaan meringkuk. mungkin ini efek semalem kena angin pas naek motor.
kemaren gue jadi ngajar di pingit. not as bad as I expected before. seru dan tidak menguras emosi. mungkin emang anak-anaknya agak kasar dan kelakuannya kurang baik. we'll fix it later. yang penting enjoy dulu ngajarinnya. gue semalem ngajarin seorang anak, namanya Rara. dari pertama dateng Rara kayaknya emang udah 'milih' gue. dia ngajak ngobrol dan ngasih permen ke gue. :) habis itu dia ngajakin main gitar dan ngajarin musik. dia termasuk anak yang bakat musik. sekali diajarin dia langsung ngerti dan bisa. seneng banget rasanya. tapi satu kejadian yang bikin gue kaget adalah waktu ada yang gangguin dia main pianika, dia langsung reflek nampar anak itu. nampar cobalah! masa iya gue ga kaget. gue sampe speechless dan ga tau mau nasehatin apa. jadi yang gue bisa lakuin cuma megangin tangan Rara biar dia ga mukul lagi.
dari pengalaman kemaren, gue banyak belajar. belajar untuk bersyukur atas apa yang udah gue dapet selama ini dan yang lebih penting belajar unutk menerima kenyataan bahwa jadi guru itu keren dan asik... well we'll see

I love children more than I expected before. but that doesn't mean I want to be a teacher right away...

living in a different world

aku baru aja pulang jalan bareng temen2 SMA. ya, tadi aku ikut EKM STECE. terus kita jalan ke mondo dan makan di sana. cerita2 sampe jam 10 (dari jam 8)... awalnya cerita kuliah biasa. dan lama2 merambat ke masalah temen2. bukan gimana ya, tapi di kuliah itu temennya bener2 beda sama sekolah dulu. aku ga bisa ketemu temen yang gilanya ya segila aku dulu. aku ga bisa nemu temen yang accept my crazy part of brain... dan ternyata temen-temenku juga merasakan hal yang sama. apalagi temen2 kita sekarang cenderung ga punya inisiatif.. bukan kita sok ngatur, tapi begitu ketemu sama hal kecil yang kita udah terbiasa untuk ngerjain bareng-bareng dan ga ada yang mau ngurusin ya kita terpanggil untuk ngurusin. kita dari dulu diajarin untuk ngurusin semua sendiri (like a single parent *kata odil* haha). kita kan ga mungkin ngelakuin segala sesuatu dituntun terus. banyak cerita yang ngegambarin kalo kita sekarang udah hidup dunia yang beda dari dulu. we used to live in a place called women solidarity world and now we're in a middle of selfish world...
 I really miss my old friends. these new things drive me crazy!

the day we realize that life is not that important to us

yap... the life isn't that important. I mean, there's a thing that more important than life, spirit. I realize that I'm alive but I don't have any spirit to live my life... I feel empty and sad all the time. I just think that it's more than enough. even if I can't accept somethings in my life doesn't mean this is the end of my life or something right? I'm immature and I know that won't help. but sometimes, when you look at the toodler, which still learn to walk, you see that even if they fall over and over again they have to stand back and start to walk again or they would never walk for entire of their life again... so, I will stand back and walk my life again. and this time I will walk with full spirit

coloring the triangle

look what I'm doing right now. seems like I'm going to be a primary school student and not a teacher

inisiasi (lagi)

inisiasi di kampusku itu ga cuma 1 kali tapi 3 kali. inisiasi universitas (insadha), inisiasi fakultas (infisa) dan inisiasi prodi (insipro). minggu lalu kita baru aja infisa dan rasanya jadi legaaa banget. tinggal 1 lagi kewajiban inisiasi yaitu insipro. dan insipro itu nginep di pantai..... T__T

infisa udah sekesai tinggal insipro.. dan tanpa disadari insipronya itu minggu depan.. even less than a week!! matilah gue.. I have to prepare my self well.. I will be sleeping in a tent for 3 days! yang paling parah adalah harus ngelawan panasnya terik matahari di siang dan dinginnya hembusan angin di malam hari..... well, lets hope nothing bad happen to me. to us..

(another) what if

aransemen
seandainya video ini keupload dan berhasil di link ke web snmptn 6 bulan lalu.... I won't be here and willing to be a primary teacher..... if only.....

I messed up

I got an audition for campus choir yesterday. I was too excited that I can't chose what song to sing. I even changed the song a minute before they called my name. and the worst thing is I messed up my interview... T___T they asked me "how sure you could make it and join this choir" I was shaking and thought every single number that I could say but I said "60%" .... and I felt sad about it. I should said more! hmmmm...
I hope I could get in there. I just really really want to join them. I hope I could......... now the last thing that I can do is waiting and pray

I'm fed up! *hoek*

inisiasi fakultas hari kedua awalnya asik tapi di tengah2 gue jadi muak. muak dengan segala sebutan guru yang menggema di mana2. dan paling parah waktu talk show ditanga "siapa di sini yang gak mau jadi guru" dan otomatis tangan ini langsung melambai di atas kepala diiringi dengan lirikan dan bisikan sebelah2 gue.
Ya, it's a real thing. I don't want any of this. guru, apalagi guru sd. oh gawd, beneran ga seru dan ga berkembang. semuanya bilang jadilah guru kreatif. but in a real world, teacher will still be a teacher. nothing good happens for teachers..... I hope someday, ya someday I will find a way to be myself or at least I'll find a way to prove that I'm wrong

jadi guru (?)

dan ini serius, dipikiranku jadi guru itu hanya 0.5% bisa jadi nyata. gue, bentukan kayak gini mau jadi guru? ya.. I don't think I can handle kids. dan di inisiasi fakultasku itu aku merasa kalo kita disiapin banget jadi guru. the real thing is who knows the future? maybe some of us later won't be a teacher. maybe something else. ya, mungkin semua pada nanya "kalo lo ga mau jadi guru kenapa ambil FKIP gi?"
ya, you can read my lastest post. I just don't really want this. can I get what I really want?

gia yang sekarang adalah gia yang udah sadar kalo mungkin ini emang udah jalan hidupnya buat jadi seorang guru. maybe not a good one, but I'll try. :) at least I make my mom proud of me.... hehe
kuliah udah hampir dua minggu dan rasanya tuh bosen.. apa yang udah dipelajarin di fisika, mat dan bio SMA kembali di ulang di kuliah (minus ulangan ngejelimet, pr seabrek, laporan praktikum tiap minggu sih).. tapi ya ada hal-hal baru juga kayak aku belajar perkembangan peserta didik, terus belajar menulis indah dankerajinan tangan, terus juga belajar logika. ya mungkin ga terlalu menantang, tapi aku lumayan sudah menerima kodratku di sini.... music and design will wait until I become S.Pd :)

Here comes bestfriends

Actually I made last post in the middle of the night when I didn’t have any internet connection. Yeah, I’ve forgot about that thing. I’ll try to be a teacher. No, this is serious.

My bestfriends are the best! They got me and give me a lot of spirit. LOVE MY BESTFRIENDS! Dan gia yang sekarang udah ga galau lagi masalah desain dan musik. I’ll become a good singer one day, or I could design my own blog, even now. Jadi ga ada masalah lagi. Semua bisa dilakuin sementara aku menata hidup untuk jadi seorang guru. “be a good teacher” that’s what’s one of my friends say. Mungkin ada jalan lain buat mewujudkan impian. :) bahkan ga semua temenku dapet apa yang mereka mau. Ya, setidaknya I’ve told them. Semoga aja gia yang ini ga bakal bertindak bodoh dan ngundurin diri dari kuliah (amit-amit deh). I’ve told you I’ll try. Dan aku harap percobaan itu ga bakal berhenti. Terus mencoba sampai berhasil jadi..... guru (*nangis dalem hati*)...... tapi apapun itu, yang penting aku punya banyak orang yang dukung aku. So nice to hear them speak to me. They just care... Well, that’s what’s friends are for :))

Mahasiswa (?)

Just never imagine this. Mahasiswa itu... rasanya jauh dari bayangan gue. Mungkin karena what I’ve chose is not the one I really want. Music and design. Semua mimpiku untuk jadi penyanyi dan desainer gravis terkenal kandas sudah. I won’t produce my own song, I won’t design blogs....

I will.......... teach

It’s hard to me to accept that everyone seems like walking on their way to success, and I... I just don’t want to walk in this way. I want my own way.

Oh GOD, I hope my mom and dad won’t read this post. 

What ifs

I’ve been thinking about this lately. Is there any possibilities to rewind back the time? I really want to do that. I think I made a wrong choise. I’m gonna go back and go with:

“What if I chose design or music. Anything that I always felt comfotable with?”

I know it’s impossible but its hurt everytime they ask me what I’m on with and I have to pretend that I love being here. With these ‘future’s teacher’ things. I want to be myself. I don’t want to stand behind other people dreams like this. I’ve been lying a lot. Even to myself. Why am I doing this to myself? I don’t want this... I want my dreams to come true. And now, my dream is in the other way. And I take a way which make me further from my dream. Something inside me just scream everytime I look at other people who play music and design something. Teacher (?) is it what you really want to be, gi? Seems I lose myself in the middle of wrong way. I’ve cried a lot of times and still feel not okay.

What’s more important? My dream or other’s happiness (?) can’t decide one.....

Insadha 2013

So, this is my first experience. Hari pertama itu ya datar banget. Rasanya pengen cepet2 pulang.... males banget ikut karena boring banget. Hari kedua juga masih agak boring. Tapi hari terakhir, everything changed. This is seriously fun! Haha.... siapa yang nyangka seorang gia langsung bisa cepet adaptasi. 3 days, that’s a new record! Hehe.. found a lot of new friends, and they are nice. J dan yang paling seru itu pas latian untuk nampilin sesuatu buat malem inagurasi. We’re prepared well. Tapi ya, kita ga bisa maju ke panggung. Ga papa, menurutku dengan audisi aja udah cukup menghibur. Hehe...... ya, sejak saat itu nama ‘gia operator’ jadi ngelekat gitu sama aku. Aku kan megang audio, which always I did in high school. Hehe. So glad to prepared everything about music, which is fun for me. Bahkan ada yang sampe ngira aku anak TI (teknik informatika). Hahaha. Yeah, become a primary teacher is not my dream actually. So, back to the topic. Inagurasi itu emang seru. Walau awalnya juga bosen. Hehe. Keliling2 ngeliat UKM dan bener2 ga terlalu excited. Of course I’ll try my best to become cantus firmus choir’s alto singer. I hope I could be a part of them! Tapi plan B ya karawitan dan karate. Imagine me, doing karate. Hahahahah! Tapi yang paling seru adalah malem puncak.. siapa sangka kalo kembang apinya itu nyenengin banget. Dan seorang gia bisa teriak2 kayak nonton konser. WOW! saaaaluuuuuttttt

Dan yang lebih nyenengin lagi waktu pake jas almamater dan mengan lilin yang nyala... wuaaaaah rasanya itu, nyeeees gitu. Aku yang tadinya ga mau masuk sadhar jadi sedikit lebih mikir kenapa aku bisa bangga untuk kuliah di sini. This is my home, and I will always proud of this! :)))

 so, this is my new day...... PGSD SANATA DHARMA 2013 

Big Apple bites

so this is me, sitting in the sofa and thinking about tomorrow. worried. and really want to go there. hmmmmm
i'm affraid. I don't know why but I just don't want to make my parent sad... I want to make them proud
so, I'll go to jogja and study as hard as I could
as this apple fulls me, I hope I could make my parents satisfied

when I decided to change my memories

ini sebenernya bermula dari tweet. one of my friend say that she remember something every time she come into a place. gue sih langsung nyeletuk aja tanpa basa basi. tapi yang dia lakukan itu malah lebih frontal. I don't know why but I felt curious. and as that happened I know that someone has removed me as a friend.

just think about this thing:

if something doesn't hurt you or disturb you that much, you won't remove or unfollow someone right? and this is happened to me. so my question is what happened? am I too disturbing to be even a friend in a social media?

at the and of the day, I just think about something that I won't recall that time when I met everyone there. just pretend that I don't even know them. I hope I won't disturb anyone again so other people won't remove me like this.

new life (?)

hari ini gue sendirian di rumah. dan tiba2 gue jadi keinget asrama... asrama yang selalu tenang dan damai. hehe I really miss my life in my dorm. awalnya emang gue homesick terus tapi lama2.. great things happened a lot. gue dapet kakak kelas dan temen2 yang bisa ngubah hidup gue seketika.

sedih banget ya ternyata harus pindah dari asrama. rasanya tuh ada yang beda aja. apalagi banyak banget temen2ku yang kuliahnya ga di jogja.... padahal gue berharap banget bisa bareng mereka lagi.. tapi ya, at least they got what they really want.

sekarang gue cuma lagi mikir kalo itu berarti di jogja gue bakal memulai hidup baru (ceileeh).. di tempat kost baru, tempat kuliah yang asing, temen2 baru.. apalagi dari stece yng masuk pgsd sejauh pengamatan gue cuma gue doang!!! bayangin... betapa merananya. tapi ga papa. we'll see, what will happen in my new life :)

I didn't get what I really want

ya.. you know that I really hope that I could study in state university. but that just won't happen. masuk swasta itu...... ya, won't make me jump or something but I just smile when I get in there.... at least I know what to do there. even I don't like children
tapi ya sudahlah.. I just want to make my parents proud. that's hard since I didn't get what I want but its okay. I think God has another good plan for me :)
see ya at Elementary teachers major at Sanata Dharma Jogjakarta

jobless girl

ya, that's me. sekarang gue bener2 jadi orang yang ga punya kerjaan. ternyata sangat kacau. I'm getting fatter! tapi ga papa. this is a REAL holiday!
by the way, kemaren sabtu aku beli kebaya. repoooot banget milihnya. tapi akhirnya hasil pilihan mama yang warna ungu dibeli juga. dan bahagianya juga sekalian beli bawahannya dan sepatunya. yang msih bingung adalah mau diapain ni rambut. yang jelas I will say no to sanggul! males banget dikata orang mau nikahan kali. at least udah dapet jadi legaa banget.
tanggal 23 nanti aku balik jogja. rasanya bingung abis ini mau ke mana lagi... cari kost! that's the most important one!

holiday!!!

ya.. gue udah seminggu lebih melewati yang namanya UN! walaupun sedikit mengecewakan karena soalnya SUSAH banget at least I've done my best! hahahaha
so now, I'm home and getting fatter everyday. gapapalah. diet is not suitable for holiday! so after this post, I think I might post every step that I take after highschool.
*pray for my graduation! and SNMPTN.. amin dah keterima UNY... amiiiiin

before the examination, my room is soooooooo messy but I realized that I have to tidy up and before UN, this mess is turn to happiness!!

I did a wrong thing

so I deleted some of my posts... damn bad news...
and now I just think that a lot of things aren't right in my life. so many things happened without warning and just ruin my life like the flood and the DBD things.. this things made me suffer a lot. but the thing is I've been that down so I wanted to wakt up right now!!! I want to work harder on my study.. I decided to get a higher score. I want to make my family proud. I don't want to make my mom disapointed. she has done a lot of things for me :'( mom, you need to know that I will do anything to make you proud... and now I will fight till the and for my examination. please wish me luck mom :)