life goals (?)

so, hi hi people :) hehe it's H-11 going back to Jogja and I have a lot to tell you. I don't know where to start (soalnya 11 hari lagi gue ga bakal punya internet cepet yang dapat mengakomodasi terjaminnya isi blog gue ini haha). so, let me start with my goals this year. we haven't meet since forever, which is more than a year, and I haven't told you about my life goals this year. okaay, so last christmas I couldn't go home because I have a lot to do in Jogja. My first goal this year is get a lot of activities that I could do. I want to have a very tight days in my week so I don't have to think about missing home or other useless things. yeah, it's work! last 6 months I've been busy all the time and I can't even have a break just to buy some groceries. pretty busy, huh? I took a lot of responsibilities that made me too busy so I couldn't go out with some of my friends too. that affect my sleeping pattern too. I have little time to sleep and sometimes I have hard time to concentrate in class. I know that's hard for me, but I love being busy, so, I'm happy :) am I? :')

The second goal is I wanna be my truly self. I mean, not that all this time I lied about who I am. but I just feel that I've been hiding in my comfort zone. I think and do things that I think will make me stay in my comfort zone. I just do not want to do that anymore. I'm 20 right now, and I have to act like I'm 20. so I take my responsibilities to show what person I've hide before. you know, I like to lead, I mean I can take a responsibility as a leader. so I took that responsibility. I become a leader of an event. not a big event, but I know this is just like an opening to show what I've got.

Third is I want to be prettier. LOL, but this real. I know that I already told anyone that everyone is beautiful but I want to have my own style to get into it. so, I'm trying to get my eyes on some beauty bloggers and youtubers. I think I'm going to tell you about these girls later :)

And this is my last goal : accept my past. I want to look forward and just look back my past for my good. I want to take my past as a lesson not as a regret. I want to believe that everything in my past have their part to make me as me today. so, here I am, enjoying myself as a teacher wannabe. yess, I'm ready to be a teacher. but not a usual teacher, a rocking teacher that have a busy schedule, accept herself, and mature enough to accept everything happened in her past. Also, I want to be a stylish teacher :) hahaha. I'm getting ready for the next semester!