the day we realize that life is not that important to us

yap... the life isn't that important. I mean, there's a thing that more important than life, spirit. I realize that I'm alive but I don't have any spirit to live my life... I feel empty and sad all the time. I just think that it's more than enough. even if I can't accept somethings in my life doesn't mean this is the end of my life or something right? I'm immature and I know that won't help. but sometimes, when you look at the toodler, which still learn to walk, you see that even if they fall over and over again they have to stand back and start to walk again or they would never walk for entire of their life again... so, I will stand back and walk my life again. and this time I will walk with full spirit