I'm sick (?)

pagi ini gue merasa gak enak badan. entah kenapa.. mungkin karena masuk angin. yang jelas tadi pagi tiba-tiba jam 3 gue kebangun dan langsung lari ke kamar mandi (well, I bet you don't want to know the details right?). terus jam 4 gue bangun lagi, jam 6 juga untuk melakukan hal yang sama. ya mungkin sakit itu bukan hal yang jarang dialami orang. sakit itu lumrah. tapi ini adalah sakit pertama gue semenjak gue tinggal sendirian di kost.

sakit di kost itu ga enak banget sumpah! kalo dulu di asrama, kalo sakit bakal ada yang jagain, ngambilin makanan, ngompresin kalo panas. lah ini? gue bener-bener harus beli makan sendiri, beli obat sendiri. bahkan gue mikir kalo emang parah, gue harus ke dokter sendiri, ga bisa dianterin suster lagi kayak dulu. ya, gue emang bisa minta bantuan temen-temen. tapi, mereka kan punya kesibukan lain yang mungkin lebih penting. ya, I know it's hard to live alone... *sigh* but, I have to stay strong! you can do it, gi! hmmm

so, hari ini gue bakal pergi cari obat dan cari makanan sendiri. trying to be independent B) hahaha... pokoknya hari ini harus sembuh biar sabtu bisa suporteran *tetep* haahahaha

after 4 years we've been together...

sumpah ini gue lagi bt banget pagi ini... ga tau kenapa udah sekitar 2 hari kost gue sering mati listrik gitu. menurut pengamatan gue sih listriknya njeglek (if you don't know what is 'njeglek', maksud gue listriknya mati gara2 gak kuat karna terlalu banyak listrik yang dipake) gitu. padahal gue tuh cuma nyolok laptop sama nyalain lampu doang.. gila ya. emang ga enak idup jadi anak kost itu. kan kasian laptop gue jadi sering heng gara-gara mati lampu (ya sebenernya karna usianya aja sih yang udah tua. mati listrik mah ga ngaruh)..

nah sekarang gue mau ngomongin laptop gue yang udah tua ini. hehehe *pukpuk
laptop gue ini tanpa sadar sudah melewati banyak cobaan hidup bersama gue. mulai dari buat internetan 24 jam, download banyak lagu, foto-foto sama temen-temen, sampe yang paling amazing adalah bikin laporan sambil begadang (kenapa gue gak bilang begadang sambil bikin laporan? soalnya biasanya kan kegiatan utaman disebutin duluan. hahaha) laptop gue ini umurnya udah hampir 4 tahun. dia nemenin gue dari tahun 2010. gila ya, setia banget. hahahaah
intinya laptop gue ini udah berjasa banget dalam segala hal. hehehe.. waktu dibeliin itu gue ga bisa milih. bokap nyokap tiba-tiba bilang mau beliin laptop terus mereka pergi ngeloyor sendiri entah ke mana, eh pulang-pulang udah bawa laptop. hehe.. awalnya gue males banget dapet laptop ini, karna yang gue mau itu yang warnanya lebih cerah kayak pink atau putih kek. tapi ga papa kok, ga alay juga kan ya? hehe.. dan yang paling penting ga keliatan kalo kotor. hahaa mama dan papa memang sangat mengerti anaknya yang malas bersih-bersih ini. hehehee..
intinya gue sayang banget sama ni laptop. kalo sampe dia ilang, rusak atau diganti (well, kalo diganti ga papa sih sebenernya *ngarep*) gue bakal merasa kehilangan banget... I've got too much memories with you dear my beloved laptop. hehehehehe :) so, semoga aja seringnya frekuensi mati listrik di kost gue gak bikin si laptop ini rusak. hehhehe

complaining to the universe

jadi tadi pagi gue barusan KRSan. anyway I really didn't know what is the real function of KRS.. orang tadi tuh isinya cuma duduk-duduk doang. dan berita buruknya adalah kita ga bisa ambil kelas tambahan. alasan utamanya karena udah dipaketin. apa coba? I officially hate my major! dan yang paling nyebelin adalah waktu tau jadwalnya.... satu kata: kampreeeeeeeeet! apa2an coba. ada yang masuk jam 1 siang, ada yang pulang jam 6, dan yang paling parah banyak jam kosong bertebaran di mana-mana. sumpah ya ga boong ini super kampret! ya, I know that I've told you I wanna move on, I won't regret whatever and blah blah blah... but I never told you I will love my major, right?

if only I could cry in front of the universe and say "Kenapa gue ambil jurusan ini? kenapa???" (ala-ala sinetron indonesia yang scene-nya berlutut ditengah jalan malem-malem pas ujan gede gitu) terus waktu bisa muter lagi ke zaman gue sma terus gue...
okay, this is out of the line! balik ke topik:

intinya adalah mari kita berjuang melawan kekampretan ini. my mom said maybe this for my best too. good gpa is never enough. let's try this: best gpa! hhahahha... just kidding :) at least we have to try it first, right folks! I'm on my way to catch one of my dreams...
this is my quote of the day:

dry my eyes and now I will start living today!

so, happy new years folks! hahaha a bit late I guess. it's okay. yeah, you know a lot of things that happened last year. a huge flood which drown my dorm, my final examination, I got sick a three weeks before my final examination, I didn't get in public university, and I made a very dumb decision to chose primary school education program in a private university. I know I've made so much unpredictable memories last year but you know I always regret all things that happened. so starting today, I will release my pain about what happened and start to accepet every consequences from my bad decision. I hope even if I look back to see what happened in 2013 I'll smile and say "That's my past. I'll learn from it and dry my tears as quick as I could"
so now I will start living as a new me! no more tears (well there will be but it's not about what happened in the past) so focus gi! reach your dream and go on.. :)

new years eve

this is the last day of 2013. this year I've suffered from a lot of problems. banyak penyesalan yang timbul cuma gara2 salah mengambil keputusan tahun ini. kenapa gue harus masuk pgsd? kenapa gue harus sakit waktu UN? I know we can't rewind the time, so I don't have to regret it anymore.
tahun depan gue akan coba buat gak nyesel lagi masuk jurusan yang bikin gue gila ini. tahun 2014 bakal jadi tahun kebangkitan gue! gue akan berusaha sebaik mungkin biar gue cepet lulus.
the thing is gue sangat kecewa tahun ini banyak resolusi yang gak tercapai. jadi tahun depan gue ga mau punya resolusi. jadi mulai besok gue akan jalanin hidup tanpa beban. I have targets but no resolution. gak ada yang mesti gue capai tahun ini. so now, I welcoming a very wonderful year 2014!
goodbye 2013! too much memories I've learned from you... 2014, please be good! I want to learn more from you... let's meet tomorrow!

Happy new year everyone!

do you want to build a snowman?

this phrase is a piece of Frozen's song lyrics. I would like to say that I almost cry because of this song. This song is about Anna who really want to go out with her sister, Elsa. Elsa locked herself in her room because she doesn't want to hurt Anna. Elsa has a power who can freeze anything she touch. she made her sister hurt once, so she doesn't want to hurt her anymore.
the phrase "Do you want to build a snowman" is represented a loneliness. Anna really want to play with Elsa, build a snowman and talk together like they used to be.

In my life, this phrase made me cry because I think I felt the same loneliness. I really miss my friends. I want to go out with them. but at the moment they already have their own thing to do. I miss all the time that we've spent together. this new life is sucks! I really want to rewind the time and find myself back with all my besties. guys, "do you want to build a snowman?"

don't stay in my way

yeah, I dont want something or somebody stand in the way I walked in. I've fell into this wrong way and I just want to walk through it as fast as I can. I want to be graduated as soon as possible! I don't want anything disturb me. anything, any kind of thing.. I just want to say that I'm, trying to be nice for everyone. I just don't want they think I am arrogant or something. that's all. I just want to be remembered as a good person. and I don't even want someone fall for it. I mean, I just want to make friends. (wow, I mean not really friends but something that cool enough just to know each other's name)
so, I'm telling you to get lost! just... go, I don't want to hurt anyone. I just want the fastest way to get over this thing and then chase my own dream.. I just want to let it go. I can't hold it back. it's been a long time since I could talk the way I wanted to. I've been always be a good girl, I mean for anyone. and now, I won't let anything stand in my way. fight for your own dream gi!!!

frozen !

maybe after this post you will think I'm childish, but this is me.. I like being childish. haha.
you know I love cartoons and yesterday I watched Disney's newest animation movie. It is FROZEN! I'm so excited because I know the story will be different from another Disney's stories...
And the best thing about this movie is the soundtrack. a lot of glee cast sang for this movie and Kristen Bell too!

you know, animated movies not always made for children. nah, I think this movie not only made for children but for adult too. this movie is about love stuff and sisterhood. with a perfect soundtrack this movie almost made me cry a couple of time.

reunion

jadi ceritanya hari sabtu kemaren woro ke jogja. jadilah kita jalan bareng ya udah kayak reunian gitu jatohnya. hahaha... gimana enggak? ada aku, woro, osi, elae, riri sama ike. ya cuma ber-6 sih tapi rasanya udah rame. hehe
kita makan bakso dan soto di sekolah, ketemu guru-guru, ngobrol-ngobrol tentang kuliah. iya, kita semua merasakan hal yang sama. kuliah itu ga seenak sma. temennya yang beda. we do have friends, but we couldn't be as crazy as when we're with friends from high school. tapi ya cepat atau lambat kan kita harus bisa adaptasi..
yang paling asik adalah akhirnya aku bisa makan bakso sekolah lagi. harganya sih udah naik jadi 6000, tapi rasanya masih sama enaknya. rasanya bisa duduk di aula lagi juga sesuatu banget. haha. selama ngobrol guru-guru tuh pada seliwar seliwir depan kita terus ya salaman dan ngobrol-ngobrol gitu. lucu aja sebenernya ngobrol sama mereka sekarang ketika kita udah ga jadi muridnya lagi. it's just like we're talking to our old friends... hahahah
yang jelas semuanya menyenangkan banget. rasanya pengen ngulang masa-masa itu. harusnya dulu aku ga ngeluh separah itu, buktinya sekarang bisa kangen. rasanya kayak udah lama banget, padahal juga belom sampe satu semester ninggalin sekolah. tapi berasa banget bedanya. hmmmmm... singkat cerita dari sekolah kita pergi ke moviebox. kita nonton ber-7, ketambahan runi gitu. hehe. pulang nonton kan udah sore, aku, riri, woro sama ike balik ke rumah ike dulu.

jam 6 kita langsung cus ke mcd ketemu sese sama maye... pas ketemu tuh rasanya ya ampun udah lama banget ga liat muka mereka.. hahhaa.. kita ngobrol tuh bener-bener sampe ga punya malu. kita di mcd dari jam 6 sampe jam 9 lebih. ketawa-ketawa dengan seenaknya padahal itu malem minggu dan rame banget. dan kita mengganggap seperti rumah sendiri dengan foto-foto gitu. hahahahaha. ga tau malu inilah yang aku kangenin dari diriku. rasanya ke-enggak-tau-malu-an di diriku berkurang setelah lulus. hahahaha... awesome day girls!!

a glass of lemonade

melati wrote this. thx for the spirit mel & lis :)

satu setengah bulan jadi mahasiswa FKIP itu rasanya lucu banget. like a glass of lemonade. it's sour but sweet. masih tersisa sedikit sedih karena ga jadi masuk jurusan musik atau desain tapi sekarang aku udah bisa nerima dan jadi seneng ngajar dan ngeliat anak kecil. mungkin karena di pingit ketemu banyak anak yang buat aku bersyukur dan banyak belajar tentang hidup. I love being here..

mungkin untuk sekarang ini aku udah masih merasa asem di pgsd. tapi sedikit demi sedikit rasa manisnya mulai terasa dan buat aku nyaman. temen-temen yang selalu ngasih semangat lebih dan juga selalu dengerin keluhanku yang kadang terlalu sinis. :) tapi sekarang aku udah lebih semangat kuliah. mungkin karena udah banyak kegiatan.. semoga aja ini bisa bertahan terus sampe aku lulus nanti

at least, aku udah bisa menerima semua yang udah terjadi dan berusaha ga ngeliat-liat itu lagi dan berenti nyesel jadi calon guru.. teacher is pretty cool, right?

overwhelmed

ya, seperti biasa selasa kemaren aku ngajar di pingit. pergi dengan hati bahagia karena bakal ketemu anak-anak yang lucu-lucu. tapi..... semua berakhir bencana waktu ternyata orang yang berangkat cuma 4 orang. biasanya yang ngajar banyak, seitar 8-14 orang. tapi kemaren...... such a disaster. we were overwhelmed to handle too many kids who comes to the class. too crowded to teach them something.
tapi yang lucu adalah kita dapet banyak pelajaran. aku yang tadinya bingung ngadepin anak kecil. sekarang jadi sedikit demi sedikit bisa pd ngomong sama anak kecil. at least I got something to learn yesterday......